You ever had a lesson run away from you?
Hide from you?
Avoid you?
When fear shows up
It as though my ability to learn evaporates.
Any lesson that was to land in my life
Gets up and walks away.
Fear…
I assume it is a she,
She be persistent in making my life incomplete.
Though desire comes around and grows bigger everyday
Fear seems like she has doubled in size just to keep the good girl desire away!
In my mind I know fear has a point
She is telling me I’m not ready just yet.
But, I can’t even try to prepare when she says “Don’t even bother. You can’t “!
Like who does she think she is!
My brain launches an attack,
Emotions now in tumult
I exhausted being in the battle that has gone on for far too long.
Though I perceive the frustration and the rising tide of change
The swells and lows of this argument has left me seemingly in the same place.
More ups and downs I am to face till eventually one will be overthrown.
Though desire is likely to win.
Fear will not hide.
She will stand and wait to raise her head at the next opportune time.