Saying what I want
Means screaming,
Sometimes it means shouting,
Sometimes it means crying.
Is that what you really want?
Because that is what it really means.
I don’t want to suppress it all, all the time!
I want to be free inside my own mind!
Your expectations may not be the same as mine
And that is completely fine
Leave me alone if you can’t take it
I agree it must not be comfortable to accept
This is real and it is true
I am not always chill
I am not always cool
Throwing my hands up in the air can be a great relief for me
It feels like freedom
Like I’ve set ME free!
Yes, I get it.
This may all be news to you.
My predictability is shattered
And so you are left feeling confused.
It not just today that is causing me to respond this way
It’s all the restrictions and suppression I done to myself over days and days.
At this point my insides are stifling and demand release from their confines.
I’m sorry you may have been hurt by this
But I have been hurting even longer
And am spent.
So I’m throwing a fit.